Still singing the blues

It's been quite a while since I've taken the time to stop and write about how I've been feeling. Maybe it's because I'm still not feeling great. Nothing has really changed over the last year and a half, except that I've gotten better at suppressing all of the things that have affected me so much. That's not entirely true; I am better, it just doesn't feel like it some of the time.

Unfortunately, though I feel myself sliding backwards quite a bit. A few things that I thought I'd resolved or learned how to deal with have been cropping up again, and it's difficult. It all makes me question why I persist in forging connections with and getting close to people when I always end up feeling left behind in the dust in the end.

I shed my tears over this and now I'm done. I refuse to let something like this impact my life more than it already has, and I refuse to let it keep happening. If that means that I have to lose that little bit of optimism that I had left, then so be it. I just need to keep chugging along with my life, not open myself up quite so much (at all?). I'm just so tired of it, and I can't keep doing it. I need to just make the best of the way that things are, and stop trying to change them.

Photo of the Day, 4/17/2011

This is spring in my neighborhood.





Edited to add:
I just realized that this is the same photo that I've taken the past few springs. I guess these trees just evoke spring to me.

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Photos of the Day, 2/15/2011

I took these last night with the Hipstamatic app at different settings. These were a couple of my favorites...













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Quote of the Day, 2/3/2011

I liked this because it reminds me of how some of the simplest daily activities make me feel really happy and centered.


"The pleasure of doing a thing in the same way at the same time every day, and savoring it, should be noted."
— Arnold Bennett

This is just a test

I haven't been able to publish from my phone for a while. Let's see if it works now...


(Scallops from Kokopelli)

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Quote of the Day, 12/30/2010

This one's a little different today. It's not from a famous author, philosopher, historian or poet. Anyone who knows me knows that I'm constantly delving into what it means to be a person of faith, and how most faiths share some fundamental tenets. So I think this is one of the truest statements I've ever read, and even though it's taken out of context, it's nonetheless true and universally applicable to all faiths, all nationalities, and all orientations (in my mind, anyway).

Anything that does not promote love is not of God. Instead of arguing, let us love one another, even those with whom we disagree. This is God's message to us. Nothing else matters.

-Rev. Candace Chellew-Hodge

Quote of the Day,

I have found that most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.

— Abraham Lincoln

Merry Christmas, and Photo of the Day!

Quote of the Day, 12/22/2010

Contemplate the extent and stability of the heavens, and then at least cease to admire worthless things.

— Boethius

(Another) Post of the Day

"The man is richest whose pleasures are the cheapest."
 
 — Henry David Thoreau