...you're supposed to make lemonade.
I've been having a really hard time making that lemonade. Or, maybe it's that I've consumed so much of it that I'm up to my eyeballs in it. I've been trying to put on a brave face and act like I'm not (that) worried or stressed out about my life right now, but in reality, I'm terrified. I have no idea what's going to happen. I haven't the faintest idea of when I might finally get a bite with my job search. I think that's what bothering me the most... I haven't had a single bite. Not a single person has responded to me from all of the resumes that I have sent out thus far. I think I would still be stressed out if I hadn't found anything but I'd been on an interview or two, but this is immense. I keep worrying that someone is looking at my resume, thinking that I'm vastly underqualifed, or that they don't want someone who will have to relocate, or have to learn something new...
I'm definitely trying to be as active as I can, because I refuse to sit at home and mope, however, the inertia is trying to suck me in. I have pretty much stuck to my rule of leaving my home every single day; the only time I didn't was once when I was sick (with the stomach bug that wasn't). But the life of leisure definitely isn't for me... Class twice a week and a couple of hours a day in a coffee shop still doesn't do nearly enough for me to feel like I'm being productive. And there's only so much knitting that one can do with their free time, as well!
SO I suppose the big question of the day is... what do I do with my free time, other than trying to find a new job? I need something to motivate me, something for me to be excited about.
**Sigh**
So what DO I do with all of these lemons?
I wonder if there is a volunteer position that would be more than making copies, like some "real work" that would make you feel better and give a real contribution. perhaps Obama has some listings on one of his many websites?
ReplyDeleteI'd recommend doing some volunteer work somewhere, even if it's a day or 2 a week. There are lots of places in the city that could use some help. And you never know who you might meet who can help you down the road. I know how frustrating it can be looking for a job in this environment -- you are far from being alone -- but it's something you have to stick with. You are right though -- getting out of the house and "mixing with the masses" is vital.
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